Too Young to be Trapped
They say that I am too young,
that I will never be able to leave.
My family wants me to stay, trapped
and holding onto a life
that I do not want, that carries no direction.
I search and strive for ways to get my freedom.
Staying in the town I was raised in would strip me of the freedom
that I desperately want. No matter how new, how young
I am, I know that I need to find my own direction.
College, or trade school, or travelling, something that lets me leave
behind the life
that is the only thing I have ever known, that has kept me trapped.
I am trapped
in my old room with my old purple bed sheets. Freedom
awaits the young girl who loves her family but dreams of a life
that is full of new adventures and new people, both young
and old, who will give her experiences that will leave
her with the mark of the world, with a new direction.
People who love me have been pointing me in the wrong direction.
It seems as if they want me to stay trapped,
to stay small, to stay listless, to never leave.
It is heart- breaking to fight for my freedom
from people who so obviously love me. Young
and scared of the new world, I falter in my determination to leave my life.
But there has to be a better, more fulfilling life.
A life where I can choose the direction
that I want. I am not too young
to make my own decisions about my future. Trapped
is not the life I want to live. I can have the freedom
to be a nurse or a writer or a paramedic. The freedom to leave.
Will they still love me if I leave?
I wonder how my family will change if I change the course of my life.
Will they be okay? Or will they think that I don’t love them because I chose freedom?
I hope they soon understand that my direction
in life does not affect how much I love them and that they don’t make me feel trapped.
I hope they know that I will love them even though I need to leave them young.
I am not too young
to realize that I can and will choose to not be trapped
in the life that seemed to be set for me. Instead, I will choose my own life, my own direction.
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